*wakes from a restless sleep and quickly realizes he's in a very, very bad way*
*gets out of bed with the sole object of leaving the palace, never mind the guards stationed outside his quarters, but finds himself too weak and his legs unwilling to support him*
*pulls a blanket off the bed and wraps it around himself, shaking violently*
*crawls into his bathroom and proceeds to offer the meager contents of his stomach to the porcelain god until he's dry-heaving*
*curls up against the wall and presses his sweaty face against the cool tile*
*materializes in front of you a few minutes later* Look. Just process this- *waves a hand* -whatever this is or abandon this bodily raiment of yours or your brainwaves are never going to settle down. And I think I've discovered a new semiconductor but I can't perform the proper experiments with you shouting in my head twenty-four hours per day of this time continuum.
*quickly finding her enthusiasm again* Yes. It's very exciting! You know how with the heterojunction bipolar transistor, you typically need a silicon-germanium alloy substrate? Well. With this material, when you perform molecular beam epitaxy to create your ohmic contact-
*surprised* Of course you can't. None of us can. The voluntary metabolic processes never take less than one minute, seventeen seconds of realtime, and even that's Aulë's supraworld record. *matter-of-factly* He's the best of us at pushing matter around. *cheerfully* One of these days I'm going to beat him, though. Just you wait and see.
Oh, but I keep forgetting you don't know. I told Mânawenûz it was a bad idea to send you back without your memories. *patiently* It's not reasonable to think a mortal could be capable of killing the Morgoth, is it? My circuits! The rest of us Ainur achieved no empirical success on that front! *pensively* I have my own theory that that curse of his helped engineer you for the job from the beginning.
*pulls his blanket tighter around him even though he's sweating buckets* So. Assuming you're not a figment of my imagination telling me the truth, how do I...process? Or abandon... *sighs tiredly* ...what was the other option?
*sits down next to you* These physical forms are to us as clothing to the mortals. You can reject yours but I'm not sure I'd recommend it if you can't recall how to re-form. You might be swimming around in the ether bodilessly for thousands of years. No, in this case I'd just shift some atoms, if I were you.
*appraisingly* Besides, it's a very nice form. *wags a finger at you* You need to feed them, though. Haven't the mortals mentioned that? I'm personally a big fan of waffles. They remind me of the structure used to focus electrons emitted by flat-planel display cathodes. *smiles!*
*still reading your thoughts* Dr. Ron is a very perceptive man, you know.
Think about it for a while. Something may come to you. Otherwise I suppose you'll just have to do what the mortals do. *pats your hand* I'll let Melian know you're awake. Try to relax, okay? Think of the semiconductors.
*looks over at the untouched food* Still don't feel like eating anything? Try to take a bit of water, at least. It will give you something to throw up later.
*laughs softly* We'll put you on a strictly waffle-free regimine.
*sits quietly for a moment* Yes, she was, and you are. You are a Valar, in fact. That was why you heard my thoughts last night, and you can probably hear them now, if you try. There is no secret I can keep from you.
*squeezes back* Good. Some secrets are better left secret. Like what Thingol looks like in boxer-briefs. If there's ever something you want to know, you can ask. I swear I will not lie to you.
*yep, ReallyNotInterestedinfinity in that particular secret, thanks*
*is actually a little grateful to have OMG AGONY to occupy his thoughts at the moment* Thank you. M-maybe I'll t-take you up on that never s-sometime. And where is that fucking doctor?
Somehow I'm not surprised. I see. *takes about one-billionth of a second to diagnose the symptoms* Hmm. Yes. *wears an expression very much like he's figuring out how to say something nobody wants to hear*
*cautiously* But since you're clearly already well into withdrawal, it's probably best just to make you tough it out, if possible. You haven't been using long, so the worst of it will be out of your system in a couple days. They'll be miserable days but they won't cause you additional harm.
*continuing smoothly* Eat when you feel you can, even if you don't keep it down. You'll most likely have trouble sleeping but as the effects wear off, you'll become exhausted. Sleep as much as you need to.
*speaking a little more quickly* The trick will be staying away from the drugs once you feel strong enough to function somewhat normally again. Luckily the books say the physical aspect of heroin addition is much stronger than the psychological aspect.
*talks to a guard and gives orders that food and water are to be brought to you at regular intervals, even if you don't eat them, and that a doctor should be called immediately if you start to get much worse*
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