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02/15/2007 10:47:00
[info]luthiekins
*cannot believe it’s raining while she’s at the beach*

*decides that, with what Beren said and the strange thoughts she's been having lately, she should give the research thing another try*

*heads down to the local bookshop and begins picking through the history*

Hmm. "The Lay of Leithian". That sounds sad. Not what I'm looking for.

*flips through a few books until she spots the section devoted to the Quenta Silmarillion*

Daddy was looking at that one before.

*picks it up and turns to the last page*

*reads* In Middle-earth dwelt also Gil-galad the High King *feels a smile and a blush creep over her face* and with him was Elrond Half-elven, who chose, as was granted him, to be numbered among the Eldar; but Elros his brother chose to abide with Men. And from these brethren alone has come among Men the blood of the Firstborn and a strain of the spirits divine that were before Arda; for they were the sons of Elwing, Dior's daughter, Lúthien's son, child of Thingol and Melian...

*blinks* *reads again* Dior... Lúthien's son

*stares off into space a moment, remembering* "And you bore our son, Dior."

*flips to the front of the book in a hurry and reads the table of contents, looking for something*

Chapter 19: Of Beren and Lúthien

*feels all her breath leave her* Oh, Eru, oh Eru. This isn't really happening.

*sinks to the ground and begins reading*


...


*manages to make her way back to the hotel several hours later in a state of almost catatonic calm*

*gets to the room* *completely. breaks. down*

Current Mood: numb
Tags: thingol, melian, luthien

 
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From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:04:18  

*wanders through the suite looking for you*

Lúthien, honey, are you here? Do you want to go to the movies?
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:06:42  

*is laying on her bed, curled into a ball, wrapped around a pillow, dried tears on her face*

*winces when she hears your voice*

In here.

*doesn't even know what she's going to say to you*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:09:42  

*comes in and sees you*

Lúthiekins?! What's wrong? *horrified* Is it the Falatian flesh-eating disease oh my Eru it's the Falatian flesh-eating disease I knew I should have shot that bellboy he looked filthy!
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:14:07  

I'm not sick. *sits up slowly and looks at you for a long time*

*weakly* What's a Silmaril, Daddy?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:17:23  

*stops breathing for a split second*

*sits on the edge of your bed*

*calmly* You've read the histories, haven't you, darling? You know how Fëanor made the great jewels and how they were lost to Melkor and recovered in the great wars. Then when the world was made anew their lights were placed in the heavens.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:19:10  

*scoots back a little bit away from you*

*looks out her window instead of at you*

Why did you want one so badly?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:23:21  

*is really starting to panic now*

*treading with great care* Who told you I wanted a Silmaril, Lúthien?
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:25:41  

*doesn't answer, but slowly pushes the book forward, towards you*

*after a moment* Why did you lie to me when I asked you if you knew someone named Beren? *looks at you, quite clearly hurt*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:31:31  

*is way too afraid to look at that book*

*doesn't really need to, of course* *will put together the list of Librarians to Kill later*

*weakly* Didn't I tell you he was a no-account scoundrel? That's not a lie.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:36:49  

*quite coldly considering you're her Daddy omg* What about the part where he was my husband. Did it just slip your mind?

*evenly* You hated him more than you loved me. I may not remember it, but at least now I know that much.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:42:33  

*fidgets with his hands* You have your whole life ahead of you. I didn't want anything to taint that.

*rather helplessly* Lúthien. I never loved or hated anything as much as I love you.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 11:47:14  

I never loved or hated anything as much as I love you.

*feels new tears forming and tries to fight them back* *pretty much fails*

*with tears running down her face* How can I believe that? How can I believe anything anymore? He told me you locked him up just to keep him away from me. What else are you hiding?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 11:52:59  

*can't bear seeing his baby girl cry*

*wonders how hard you'd hit him if he tried to hug you*

*fidgets more* He killed you. Did he bother to tell you that?? I'd die if he took you away from me again.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 15:05:11  

*gets up and walks around the room* Isn't that my choice to make? Why do you always try to control things? It's my life -- I have a right to know about it. *gestures wildly* Or or what? Are you going to lock me in a tree again!?

*stands still nearby* It sounded an awful lot like you were the one that killed me. *cracks a little* Daddy.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 15:17:07  

*stands and puts his hands on his hips* *angrily* Well, you know now, and I haven't locked you in a tree. The tree thing didn't work very well.

*in disbelief* Don't tell me you really believe I could have let you marry him without a second thought. He was no one. Unworthy. Is unworthy. What kind of father would I have been, to marry you off to the first strange mortal to wander by??
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 15:27:08  

Did it matter at all that he made me happy?

*assumes (hopefully) that this is true*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 15:33:38  

*despairingly* Does it matter at all that I never saw you again??
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 15:39:15  

*bursts into tears because, yes, yes it does matter, so very much*

*crumples into a ball on the floor, hiding her face in her arms*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 16:28:51  

*dies a little bit inside*

*senses that this is one of those moments where he can choose to (a) soothe you and make everything okay, or (b) remain faithful to his position*



*stays standing where he is*

*quietly* I will not apologize for my actions done in the protection of those I love.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 16:37:08  

*muffled* Who are you?

*lifts her head to look up at you and repeats herself* Who are you? I thought you would never do anything to hurt me. Ever. But you lied to me and you hid things from me and *reaches over and grabs the book from where it lies on the bed* I don't even know who this person is. *throws it against the wall* Who are you?

*brokenly* I thought you were the one person I could always trust.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 16:45:06  

I thought you would never do anything to hurt me.

*glowering* It seems to me hurt is a matter of perspective.

*turns away from you* You, who sneaks out at all hours to do Eru-knows-what with your boyfriend? Oh yes, I know about that. You, who runs away from home when something doesn't go your way? *fights to keep his voice steady* Don't talk to me about secrets and trust.
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 16:51:40  

*stands up on shaky legs*

*not even a little calmly* What do you expect me to do when you have people watching every move I make every second of the day. You clearly decided long ago that you couldn't trust me. Why should I prove you wrong?

*takes a few steps back*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 17:00:32  

*honestly cannot fathom how anyone could find something reprehensible in his having you followed*

*presses his hands flat against the wall and knocks his forehead on it repeatedly*

THAT'S NOT! ABOUT! TRUST! IT'S! ABOUT! PROTECTING! YOU! FROM! THE WORLD!
From: [info]luthiekins Date: 02/15/2007 17:10:25  

*laughs humorlessly* You can have your wish then! I'm going home to where I'm safe. From the world. I just hope I'll be safe from you there too.

*walks to the door* Don't ever talk to me again.

*walks out*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 17:14:38  

*walks over to a table and throws it over with all his might, sending glassware and things flying everywhere*

*sits on your bed and hides his face in his hands*
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 17:25:00  

*heard a good deal of that*

*and couldn't help but notice Lúthien storming out*

*not to mention the boom that followed*

*comes and sits behind you on the bed, wrapping her arms tightly around you and laying her head on your shoulder*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 17:27:28  

*can't see or hear or feel or think*

*just shakes with silent sobs*
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 17:35:29  

*stays with you the whole time, trying to comfort you and knowing full well it won't work*

*can't help feeling a bit like crying herself*
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 17:40:35  

*clings to you like a drowning man*

*eventually gives himself a mental scolding and gets himself more or less under control*
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 17:46:30  

*sees that you're starting to feel a bit better (or as 'better' as she can hope for)*

*tries to think of something to say*





I take it you don't want dinner, then?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 18:08:56  

*shakes his head numbly*

I. I think I'll just try and get a little work done. Laws to change, issues to work over.
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 18:12:25  

*nods and moves away*

I should leave you then?. If you need anything...? I'll be here.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 18:16:31  

*has no idea what he wants at the moment*

I...yes, that's fine. Thank you. *gazing out the window* I suppose there's not much point in staying here after tonight, is there?
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 18:21:24  

*starts to tidy the mess from the table because she feels like she should do something*

No, I think not. We can leave in the morning. Maybe the night will give her time to think?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 18:28:59  

*rests his chin on his hands*

I don't care what she does. He can look after her if she's so very infatuated. For his sake I hope he has plenty of credit.

*doesn't sound terribly sure of himself*
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 18:38:12  

*sighs and sits next to you again* Of course you don't. Just as you don't care if Olwë assumes control of your kingdom or if all your caves are filled with rock and sand. It all matters so very little.

*with pity* Don't hide what you're feeling from me. I've known you for too long. There's no need.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 18:43:26  

*shortly* Well, what's the point in talking about it? You heard what she said, didn't you? She's gone, isn't she?
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 18:52:35  

*quietly* You could get her back any time you wanted and you know it. But you won't even try. Your pride is too important.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 18:55:31  

*prickling* I know what is best for my daughter. How prideful can it be if it's true?

*stands up and paces*
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 18:57:57  

*watches you* And how she felt today? That was what was best for her? What she must be feeling now? That is what is best for her?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 19:02:01  

*seething* If she were older...or if she remembered...or if she had a child she loved like I love her...she'd understand. *flat-out shouting now* She'd know why I did what I've done!
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 19:06:39  

*flatly* I love her as much as you do and I certainly do not understand.

*suddenly* Why doesn't she remember, Elwë? Why only this and nothing else?
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 19:09:03  

*laughs dryly* You, of all people, haven't figured that out, Melian? Truly? Surely you've known me for so long that none of my diabolical schemes could escape you?
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 19:12:34  

*crosses her arms* I prefer to not think the absolute worst of you most of the time. Another mistake in a long line, I see.
From: [info]sindacollo Date: 02/15/2007 19:18:14  

*brutally* I'm not interested in your opinion on this or anything else right now. So why don't you get the fuck out of my face?
From: [info]queenmelly Date: 02/15/2007 19:20:41  

*sharply* Of course you aren't. You never are when it actually matters.

*walks out of the room and the suite, taking great care to slam the door as hard as she can on her way out* *heads down to the hotel bar*
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