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09/21/2007 11:38:00
[info]artafinde
*has a father, mother, and sister who are getting ready to leave her to go live somewhere else*

*has a precarious (and likely temporary) peace between Thingol and Fingon that will probably only last another week or two until Finwë gets bored*

*has a puppy with a cold*

*has a boyfriend that won't break up with his wife whom he claims to love and definitely fears*

*for the first time in her lives, really, really needs to get out of caves and get some fresh air*

*heads out for a walk in the woods*

Current Mood: blah
Tags: finrod, vendore

 
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From: [info]melante Date: 09/21/2007 11:44:30  

*was wondering how much longer it was going to take you to seek help* *stubborn*

*comes to your location* *begins wandering serenely through the woods as if there by chance*
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/21/2007 11:45:55  

*eventually finds a stump and sits down with a sigh*

*sniffles* (*wonders if humans can catch dog-colds*)

Oh, things shouldn't be this hard.
From: [info]melante Date: 09/21/2007 12:01:23  

*walks past your spot slowly, not sparing you a glance*

I would say things aren't as hard as you make them. But I would say a lot of things. The question is whether you listen to them.

*keeps walking*
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/21/2007 12:08:20  

*jumps up at the sound of your voice*

*looks around just in time to see which direction you are headed*

Hey. Hey! HEY!!

*after a moment's indecisiveness, decides to follow after you* Wait up! Who are you!?
From: [info]melante Date: 09/21/2007 12:18:08  

*doesn't wait, but is walking so very slowly that you can easily reach her*

Who I am matters not. The only thing that matters is what you want. So what is it that you want?
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/23/2007 22:19:27  

*sort of stares at you* *doesn't think anyone's asked her what she wants for a really, really long time*

What do I want? *stops abruptly and sits down on the ground* *thinks hard*

I want peace between all the different people in this world. I want Thingol to stop being crazy learn to see issues from other perspectives than his own. I want my family to be together and happy. I want ...

*trails off* *picks at a hangnail*
From: [info]melante Date: 09/23/2007 22:22:16  

*smiles at you gently* That's very interesting. But what I would want, dear Findaráto, is for you to once think of yourself before others. Those things would be nice, yes, but they are not for you to give. But what is it that you want for yourself.

*laughs softly* Don't be afraid to speak the word that is in your mind.
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/23/2007 22:28:57  

*immediately, without thinking* Turgon. I want Turgon.

*feels a little sick* I shouldn't have said that. I shouldn't think that. He's happy with his wife?. He has a family. It's selfish.
From: [info]melante Date: 09/23/2007 22:31:09  

Sometimes selfish is good. Sometimes selfish has been earned. *quizzically* And I think that sometimes selfish is what is best for everyone. In this case it is, at least.

*pats your head as if you were a small child* Besides, little one, what you want and what he wants are the same. He just can't see very clearly.



But he will now.
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/23/2007 22:32:09  

*wonders if she should really be talking to crazy people in the woods after all*

Um. What? *laughs nervously*
From: [info]melante Date: 09/23/2007 22:32:54  

*starts humming softly and walks away without another words, gradually vanishing into the trees*
From: [info]artafinde Date: 09/23/2007 22:34:03  

*stares after you, confused*

Huh.

*sits for a while longer before eventually getting up and making her way back home*

*stops at the vet for doggy NyQuil*
From: [info]thewise Date: 09/23/2007 22:36:38  

*in Gondolin, suddenly looks up from the papers he's going through at his desk*

*stares blankly at the wall while the words he's just thought float through his mind over and over again*

*finally says them to himself, quietly at first* I want a divorce. I want a divorce. I want a divorce.



Holy crap, I want a divorce.
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